[Merskelly Metalien]

I've been getting some more headaches lately at the end of the day...
>~>; I think it's all the time spent in front of screens and not moving around much that's doin' it.
<x{ I have to try and resist taking naps now..

[Stabbsworth]

ouch, my fucking ear.

pretty sure my jaw's shifted -- idk if it's wisdom teeth, since i know someone that had their wisdom teeth at about sixteen.

[Merskelly Metalien]

I have failed miserably at everything...
<x'} I have not resisted naps, I have not exercised a lick, and I see absolutely no reason as to why I should even work towards my own future.
Oops.

Also I had to take my pillow fort down, and now I feel like I need to invade empty rooms constantly in order to have my peaceful, uninterrupted me time.
>->;
Ontop of everything it's gotten hotter suddenly. T-T I'm not ready for wildfire season, and it's already looming. If we frickin' have to evacuate our house, we're gonna have to move to a relative's house, and the nearest one is in a desert, with the second closest being all the way in Northern California. 8c Which I would rather go to, BUT I really don't need to panic about loosing my entire home and memories to a fire. ;u; I'm already depressed and anxious. No thanks pls.

[Kaderin Triste]

Fuck. Just realized that because my ipad needs a full on reset that I can't do because I don't have itunes any of my computers. (It's an old ipad 2 and they apparently tend to not work properly after a certain point apparently...) I can't access my scalemail gloves template. XP

Which isn't the end of the world, but is super annoying.

[Merskelly Metalien]

Suddenly sad. ;u; Finished computer business. Drank some water.
Then WHAM!
Sadness.
Wtf?
<x'}
I'm so alone, I just wanna cry.
Why tf can't I cry anymore?? </3

[Stabbsworth]

why bother complimenting me on my art if you're not going to goddamn reblog it? sigh.

[Kaderin Triste]

Remembered to use sunscreen yesterday. Still got a sunburn.

XP
Why? Why do I even bother?

[Stabbsworth]

love getting posted over in an art chat.

mmmmmakes me just want to quit.

[Stabbsworth]

heavy pedophilia mentions. proceed with caution.

so, i was wondering why i had someone blocked in a server that i'm in with a few friends of mine.

they recognized me as going by clockblockers back when i was younger, and, iirc, they professed some kind of attraction to me when i was fourteen. they lied and said they were sixteen, then admitted to lying about their age. (they turned out to be eighteen, but i have no idea if they were further lying about their age.)

worth noting is that this person was in a relationship with a pedophile that i had a very close call with. if i still identified as a girl at the time, then i could have been sexually abused.

my (ex) gf got the brunt of it instead. i was in a polyamorous relationship with her and a boy at the time.

i'm super pissed that it happened and i didn't realize until my (ex) gf told us and now this has happened and it's dragged up a bunch of old memories.

also i keep forgetting how long i've been stuck in the house.

[Merskelly Metalien]

I can feel my period approaching...
<x(
*BIG GROANY SIGH OF WOE*
Booooooooooooo. I do not approve of thiiiiis! <x'C </3
I only have 3 months of prescription birth control left.
;n; </3 Which is great but I now need to use either over-the-counter stuff if it's available, OR find a means to continue the prescription with new insurance. *sigh* <B'[ </3 Such a rough year...

[Coda]

AFAIK there's nothing OTC...

[Ava]

My medication, which was kinda helpful the first year I was taking it...

It's starting to become a living hell for me.
It's messing up my body in ways I didn't think it would.
It's starting to have an effect on my life in other ways... I need to come off this medication, I really do...

But this has been the longest I have been out of the hospital.. And this medication is considered 'last resort' for my "condition"... If I fail out of this medication... well, I'm f***ed. I've tried all of the "popular" medications. If I can't make it on this one... I'm too scared to think about it. I refuse to go back to the hospital... At least, not the one I went to last. It was a horrible, horrible experience.

I hate having this brain...

[Stabbsworth]

i'm starting to run out of my prescription for acne meds. while i can go without, it's just. heavily annoying because i have an awful tendency to pick at my spots.

additionally, people keep referring to innocuous little fandom gatherings as cults. i know a couple of cult survivors, and referring to nice things with a word that's horrible, it distills the meaning of the word.

[Merskelly Metalien]

There's so much sh*t I gotta do today this week... <|{
ughhhhhhhhhhhhh….

[Kaderin Triste]

Working with germaphobes is annoying. XP

[Stabbsworth]

worried about a friend of mine.