[Ava]

My medication, which was kinda helpful the first year I was taking it...

It's starting to become a living hell for me.
It's messing up my body in ways I didn't think it would.
It's starting to have an effect on my life in other ways... I need to come off this medication, I really do...

But this has been the longest I have been out of the hospital.. And this medication is considered 'last resort' for my "condition"... If I fail out of this medication... well, I'm f***ed. I've tried all of the "popular" medications. If I can't make it on this one... I'm too scared to think about it. I refuse to go back to the hospital... At least, not the one I went to last. It was a horrible, horrible experience.

I hate having this brain...