[Rosekitten]

Thalion knew Mizuki was right. That bastard would have targeted the kids. Though it made him think if they had handled things differently that things would have gone so much better. He could have, no should have stayed and told Mizuki why he hated the man Mizuki seemed to trust. Maybe they could have stood against him and Mizuki wouldn't have had to do so alone as it seemed he did.

Not that it could be changed now. No it was already said and done with now. Everything was over and here they were. Not that it meant things were fixed. No, not after what happened the last time they were together. Things were hardly fixed just like that. If only things were that simple. Mending things over with the kids was so easy, they accepted apologies and the promises that came with them.

But nothing could change what he had done, even if Mizuki had done a similar act to him it didn't make ti right. Either way Mizuki seemed to break down as he read the letter that the dragon was suppose to give to Belquiri after it was said and done. He had given up. What else did he had left besides the children? All he could do was run and hide what example was that? Lt alone he had forced the one person away and hurt him in the same action. He really did plan today to be it.

Though as Mizuki spoke Thalion glanced away a little knowing well what weight his words he said that night carried. He had , he could have said anything else anything other then what he did but the words were out there already and it seemed to stick with Mizuki. Not that it wasn't the intention, but it was only the intention when he had nothing else he could do or grasp onto. He had hurt Mizuki in more then one way that night and he was doomed to live with that.

He swallowed a little as the other seemed to keep going. He was trying to hold back any emotions like he normally did. Though after a moment he finally said screw it. He was too tired still to care about holding them back and he had done this or planted this thought in Mizuki's head without meaning to. He shook his head finally before glancing away just to avoid looking at the other's face.

"If you had left and the spell wasn't corrupt. You know I would have looked for you right.." He said as his ears dropped a little at the thought before he wiped the tear that finally forced its way out. "heh.. your place is here. normally the kids go to you, what good would it have done for you to leave and leave them here?" Either way he breathed out a little trying to avoid turning into the sobbing mess Mizuki was at the moment.

"I would have never forgot. Even if... even if I still didn't know where you were I would never stop looking. What I said.. I didn't have the right to say that night You didn't deserve any of that. I knew why you were doing what you were doing and what you were going through and I still was furious at you when I had no right to be." He said shaking his head a little knowing he didn't.

"Everyday after that I wished to anything that I could take it back, all of it.Then today came around and I decided I was going to end all of this. " His ears dropped a little more as he seemed to drawn back a little at the thought. "I had hurt the one person that shouldn't have to have that fear. I couldn't deal with it, I'm still not really. In a way I'm kind of disappointed you spared me. A selfish wish to make things easier. I was going to die and I knew it but I was going to make that bastard remember..."

Though at that he paused a little before looking at Mizuki as a few tears dropped from eyes that were holding onto pain. "Why? I know you didn't want to go through with the ritual, but why save me? What I did and said I can't take it back! Let alone he's not wrong..." Meaning Mizuki's master. "Linked to me you are being held back, you know that. Hell you saw how that fight went I can't even protect myself from my own troubles let alone you or the kids. You did all of the protecting while I went and tried to hide from it all."