[Ginger]

Diary,

I just wanted the day to myself since it isn't my favorite day of the year. Can I please just spend today in peace? Nah. Plans were already made by someone who cares and just wants me to have a good day. I know he means well and I am grateful for his efforts not that he has to try at all, it just hurts how it feels like people don't care enough to show up. Can't remember the last time I had a good birthday and I tried telling people I wanted to spend it by myself to bake and decorate cupcakes by myself so I wasn't left disappointed. It might be selfish but I don't like celebrating any holidays having to do with presents or getting together to have food. It's very uncomfortable for me. Sucks being poor, and sucks being looked at as a mooch. If people do by chance show up on Saturday I hope they didn't get me anything. Will just raise my anxiety levels and make me anxious to leave. I'll be grateful for whatever it is I get but it won't make me feel good to take them.

Miranda.