[Helsinki Harlot]

Batybby; Haha, I rarely admit to it but I'm crying right now. Thank you. Thank you so much. I really needed to hear that. So bad. 'Cause I feel like dirt. And I just. -holds you really close- I tried to be so careful, obsessively so.

Me of all people? Haha. <3 Thank you. I just feel like I should've known better than to trust, ya know? Like, I refused to be another "notch on his belt", I've finally started to maybe believe in self worth a little bit. And it got me punched in the gut.

Especially with social anxiety disorder. Even when I've been to a persons house thousands of time someone else has to lead the way and knock on the door because I am TERRIFIED of it being the wrong door. And he leads me there on purpose? I am just. God. I'm a fucking idiot.