[Pinkie]

Oh my oh my it sounds like you went through the same type of thing I did...almost...

Okay so me and the bf have now been together for three years and everythings great. Well at the start of everything it wasnt so great. You see he was ready for sex. He asked me many times within the first month of us dating to have sex and I told him no. Little did he know that I said no for personal reasons. Either way he didnt like that. We dated for a little while longer and he asked again and I said no one more time. We have been dating for 3 months at this point. So within the week of me saying no he left me. We were seporated for about a month until he came back to me and wanted me back. I am a strong believer in second chances so I said yes.

After we got back together he told me that he would wait as long as he needed to wait because he loved me. We didnt have sex or rather I didnt give in until about the 14 month mark in our relationship. So a year and two months into it. It was special.

Also as far as the blow jobs go...I still hate them. The first time the bf asked for one I agreed and tried. I was like 5 seconds from puking all over him the first time if I didnt stop so your not the only one that cant handle it. For me though its not so much as the fact of giving one its the fact of how the cum taste's really. So I did research and found that certain foods could cause the cum to taste different ways...

Any fruit will make it sweet, anything spicey will make it bitter, and anything salty will make it thicker (weird I know) so we stick to certain foods and it dose help. But another thing that I find usefull is flavored lube...it really dose help out alot lol.

But my dear you are in no way a horrible person for anything that you choose. For me it took the longest time to even contiplate having sex...took over a year with the same guy to decide that I was ready...

Do what makes you happy and if anything is going to make you feel out of place then you shouldnt do it because its not what you want. Trust me when I say its better to wait and do it when your ready then push yourself and be unhappy...