[Thorn]

Dear Self,
What's wrong with you? Why do you always seem to push people away? You get close and then you just let them go whenever they please. You welcome them back with open arms as if nothing ever happened. As if they don't have the power to bring you down and smash you to the ground all over again. Every time you make a friend something happens and they leave you. They forget all about you until its convenient for them to remember. Until they want something from you. You know that's why they come back. You understand that you'll just be hurt. Again. Why don't you stand up for yourself? Why do you allow yourself to get hurt over and over and over? I don't understand and you're me! What is so wrong with us that no one ever stays? Will he even stay? So far he's the only constant in your life and yet...You'll always worry. Always wonder if you're good enough and put yourself down. Everyone tells you how gorgeous you are. You never believe. Everyone tells you that you're a great singer. You never believe. Maybe people always leave because you can't take a compliment? Maybe you just hate yourself and they can't love you if you don't love you. Why is it all so confusing?