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"Yeah nothing to worry about. . ." as he stood up walked out the room to follow the other to make the women they called mother a card. It was something he couldn't understand as to why the other would want the love when it was clear they would never gain love. I am the manry-est of men! |
Xue walked with him looking Taihei up and down a smile on his face "That outfit looks good on you, you look like a proper gentleman." he said looking to the windows once more he often wondered what it would be like to live normally but he suddenly stopped and moved to one "Look! Look!" he exclaimed pointing to a tree some wood pigeon eggs would just be hatching, the mother watching over them to make sure nothing happened he would watch in amazement as they got through and how the mother showed them affection "I wish I was a bird..." he said quietly he was envious of the chicks and how they got their mothers love instantly
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"I wish we could be anything but us. . . ." he said in a flat tone as if it would be any better in his own mind Xue may still be the same if they where normal in away still clinging to mother all the time and being the child that needs all the needs. But he pushed away the thoughts sighed some. "I wish any kinda of animal that would get loved from there parent the moment they are born. . . ." he listened to the other about how he looked and about the bird all he could do really was just nod some. I am the manry-est of men! |
Xue sat down with some paper and pencils starting to draw it was the only thing he could do semi well but even then any one would say it was the drawings of a gifted seven year old "I'm sure it'll get better Taihei, they can't hate us for ever... can they?" he whispered his eyes on what he was doing biting the inside of his lip for a second "Do you hate me for wanting her love?" he asked his pencil snapping as he leaned on it to hard. He might have craved his mothers love but he relied on Taihei to survive he had though about ending it so many times but his twin was always there to prevent it from happening.
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Taihei didn't look back at the other or even try to tell him anything more. "If they didn't love us when we where born why would it even matter now?" he asked still looking out the window. He decided he wasn't going to answer the next question, over all he couldn't controls what the other wanted and how he wanted it. I am the manry-est of men! |
Xue looked to the other tilting his head sighing "We where born because they thought one of us would replace our sister, that and they thought we would be normal." he explained "We aren't so they hate us, we destroyed her womb... they don't get rid of us as we are useful." but he wanted to be more than a tool he wanted to be a little boy loved by his mother and playing outside with his brother "P-please answer me Taihei, mummy's love means a lot but in the end I know the only one I have is you... I don't want you to hate me too." tears welled in his eyes
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"It's things like that make it hard to even try to say that they want us, they are doing it cause we are nothing but gunnie pigs to them that they can use. That is all we are is something to use for them to cover up what they did and to play make believe house though they hate us. . . .if you want her love so much they do what she ask. . ." he said still not answering nor looking at him. "Crying. . . .that is all you have done. . .is cry when she says she hates you, or when you question me. You cry to get your answer. . ." as he leaned his head against the window. I am the manry-est of men! |
Xue went silent he was about to pick up another pencil to draw but he knew it was true that they where just kept as some sort of weird experiment, to cover the family secret and to keep up appearances but it didn't mean he needed to like it "I try but some things just don't sit right with me like having to be a girl... like the toy room..." he shook hugging himself as he mentioned that room hearing the other speak about how he cried he looked down he couldn't help it he just didn't want to be hated not by his mother not by his brother standing he ripped what he was drawing up and walked out the room towards the dinning hall on the paper he was drawing on there where two chicks one with his symbol the other with Taihei's in the distance there looked to be two other birds but they where flying away he was drawing how he had been feeling.
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Taihei stood hearing what was happening then shook his head some still looked out the window. "I only dislike you cause the harder I fought then the worse it hurt in the end. . .you still crave her love though we where punished and it hurts to know that you want that love after he stab me. . .but I don't think you would remember since you passed out after she beat you senseless" he said to him self. I am the manry-est of men! |
Xue stopped at the door hearing the other talking he had gaps in his memories so he had no idea which incident this one was "Why do we fight them so much Taihei?" he asked biting his lip as he looked down his hand going to the door frame "A child craves love from their parents... don't they?" he didn't know if his love was natural or not but he wanted to stop it if it wasn't "Perhaps we can run."
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"I fight them cause I know they never wanted us. . . .this is the truth. . .never wanted. A child wants what the child needs, love, care and everything else but that hardly happens for us. . . ." as he lifted his head to still look out the window. "Running will not help us. . . .I have wonder around trying to figure out how to leave every time I think I found away something else is in the way. . ." I am the manry-est of men! |
Xue looked to his brother and walked to him quietly a sigh coming from his lips he knew his brother was right he always had been on things like this even if he was still craving his mother's love he thought that perhaps it was time to just give up as she never did love and doubted she ever would unless he did become a girl by some miracle. Hearing that they couldn't leave he wondered if they where doomed to this mundane existence for the rest of their lives.
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"The only way to leave is if they let us or they kill us." he said. "I think what also makes them hate us is cause we can do things like this. . ." as he turned away from the window as he held a hand out making a small movement as something went to him with out him going over to get it. "This is another reason we are not allowed to be seen or anything more." I am the manry-est of men! |
Hearing their own methods of leaving he hugged to his brother he didn't want to stay there if he couldn't be loved but at the same time he didn't want to die either in case it could happen. He nodded seeing the pencil coming at them knowing they where special "I wonder why father hates us though, we inherited the gifts from his side of the family just his are so weak he can barely manifest them." he said wondering how their mother would take it if she knew. looking to his ripped picture he watched it as it mended "Lets take this to mother and get back to our cell where we can't disappoint them." he wondered what would happen if they had been good but unless their parents had a change of heart they would never know.
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"I think this could be the reason why he hates us, we have gift he was give but can not use it like we can. If she found out she would hate is even more and not bother with us, in away they would leave us in the room to die and just lock everything away so no one would know we where alive or even existed in any way." he said to him watching the other mend the drawing. I am the manry-est of men! |
Xue looked down tears falling somehow he knew that his brother was right about the whole thing "Does she really think we are like this by some flook of nature?" he asked sighing his hand going out as the picture came towards him. "I-I was looking forward today, but I ruined it..." his eyes went out the window the light still hurting his discolored eyes. He hoped the picture would make up for it but part of him suspected it would just get torn up in front of him.
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Hearing the knock on the door she looked back. "Enter, what do you want?" as she sat at her vanity mirror looking at her self as she sighed some. Then turned to look at Xue who would enter into her room. I am the manry-est of men! |
Hearing he was allowed to enter he opened the room door and walked in closing it behind him quietly, walking closer to her he held out the picture he had drawn "we wanted you to have this, we seen some wood pigeons been born." the picture had two chicks in a nest one of them with the symbol that signified him and the other used to signify Taihei "I said a lot of mean and hurtful things, I answered your question truthfully and you cried but I don't want to see mummy crying" his voice was sad as he looked to her "If mummy wants a girl and I'm the reason mummy can't have her dream, then I will become mummy's dream" the moment he stopped talking his hair grew to be where it was before he cut it "I know I'm not meant to use my abilities but girls have long hair like mummy."
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Looking at him she just watched on knowing something was a miss as she watched him held her breath knowing he had abilited like her husband but more powerful and knowing they could use them made her shake. "Leave we will talk about this later. . . . ." as she shook trying not to get even more upset. I am the manry-est of men! |
Xue walked forward and placed the picture down next to her a smile on his face. Hearing her words he nodded and moved to hug her hoping that he would gain a hug in return "I love you mummy..." he said with a smile "Mummy could you help me with the back of my dress I can't do bows and I want to be pretty for you" his voice was sincere even in her anger she would be able to see that but he pulled back feeling her shake "Mummy are you scared? or are you cold? or are you angry?" he sounded worried he hoped she was just a little cold since he didn't want to be hit or hated.
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"Xue, I will say this go now, we will talk about this later and see how I feel then so go to your doll room and stay there while I gather my thought on how I feel about all of this." she said to him not wanting to raise hand right now she was filled with all kinds of things and this was not going to end well if he stayed in here with her feeling like how she is. I am the manry-est of men! |
Xue whimpered a little he was trying to be good but somehow he still managed to do something wrong moving back he nodded "o-okay mummy." he whispered moving out of the room and back to the doll room "Perhaps I can make mummy happy by getting rid of all my boy clothing..." he whispered to himself and ran towards the doll room to do that until his mother was ready to talk to him if he still had time afterwards he would try and make the bow perfect so he could show her.
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Taihei stood out the room shook his head watched as his bother left heading to the doll room then looked into his mothers room as she went into a fit over the drawing and the use of the powers she just didn't know how to feel any more. As he turned away and left he headed down the hall him self letting out a soft sigh as he thought about what he could do to try and get away, I am the manry-est of men! |
By the time the other got near doll room his boy clothing was already folded neatly and placed on the table as he had no idea what their parents wanted done with them now he was knelt in front of the long mirror his back facing towards it, he looked over his shoulder a determined look on his face as he tried to get the bow to sit just right but each time falling he just undone it and started again.
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Taihei looked into the doll room watching his bother as he sighed some then looked back just stood in the hall ways. Gathering up his thoughts he headed down the hall looking out the windows not really understading why it was having to be this way. I am the manry-est of men! |
Taihei would bump into his father eventually his hair grabbed as he was pulled into another room and thrown to the floor hard "The one day we decide to be nice and treat you both like children you both decide to be undisciplined mongrels." he snapped "What do you have to say for yourself you filthy little bastard!" he growled, he was pissed off that his wife was upset but knew that if he took his anger out on the one that caused it then it would make her even more upset as he was marked, so had to take out his anger on the one that held little interest to his wife.
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Hitting the floor Taihei looked at his father blinked some. "I have done nothing other then what you wanted, I even tried to do what you asked of me to make him be well." he said in return all he could do was just hold back his anger as know he took all the beatings behind close doors his bother never knowing what was happening to him and this was reason why he hated Xue so much. "I did whatever it was and I am still the one being beaten! Why is this?!" he cried out. "Then change him I don't care any more, do what you want. I wont stick my neck out any more if needed they put us in different rooms and I be left alone to die! It would be freedom from his place and what I have to deal with more then him!" he yelled. I am the manry-est of men! |
The father moved and placed his foot on his son's throat after his speaking "I asked you to get him to get back into the nightgown, I told you to get him back in to apologise his mother for how he acted and I told you to punish him..." he began his eyes narrowing "You told us you couldn't and wouldn't get him to wear it and you never done the last parts you where told you filthy mutt." he growled
"Don't worry your brother is being moved to the toy room permanently so you best go say your farewells" he said with a sadistic smile, Taihei would know that anytime his brother went into that room he always came out crying and withdrawn "That way you can be on your own and never have to stick your neck out for him ever again I'm sure we'll even have some guests you can entertain." |
Grabbing on his fathers foot he looked up at him growling he hated it there and he hated his bother. But sending into place where he would not even be a person was not right and him entertain guest was not the best of childhood he could think of. "I'm not the mutt you are. . . . your only upset cause we have a gift you can't use. . . ." I am the manry-est of men! |
Xue opened the door he had heard everything from the doll room from when the yelling started "Daddy?" he questioned looking at them both for a second his eyes went wide "U...um... we need to leave this room right now." he looked down to Taihei ~Taihei do you see her?~ he sent to the other backing out of the room knowing that woman was nothing but trouble and all of a sudden wanted to be back in their cell seeing it as the safest place when some of these spirits came out to play.
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Taihei couldn't really see anything since his father was well in the way of what he could see but he could tell another person was around that was not any of them. "I would like to leave. . . .if I could. . . " he breathed out. I am the manry-est of men! |
Xue kept an eye on the woman his eyes panicked "Please daddy it's not safe in their you need to get out!" he called out just in time to see the door slamming shut his eyes looked around to see their sister with a sadistic grin on her face a lip to her finger as she tilted her head "You are going to kill them both Taihei still in their!" he whimpered his hands going to the door handle but pulled it back as he felt like it was hot. "TAIHEI! GET UNDER THE BED OR IF THERE IS A TOY OR CHILD'S BOOK GRAB IT!" he knew this ghost and knew right now the safest place was the old nursery he wondered why his sister had changed so much after being nice this morning but he really didn't want to ask while she was deranged like this.
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Finally looking around as his father wouldn't move from him he found a small doll across the room as he reached for it in hope he could bring it forth to him as quickly as he could. Once he saw the doll move he used more of his power to bring it to him as he held on it it. I am the manry-est of men! |
The father was about to say something but before he could he fell down his eyes wide from shock as a cut showed across his neck as if his throat had been slit. A woman mis-shapen stood behind him wearing rags of different colors moved towards Taihei the blade covered in the crimson liquid of his father's blood bringing up the knife she stopped seeing the doll and faded as if she had never been there.
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"yeah. . .I'm fine. . .oi this is bad. . ." as he got up looking at there now dead father then quickly moving to the door went out shutting the door behind him. "Well then. . . ." I am the manry-est of men! |
Xue watched as Taihei moved through the door quickly closing the door his eyes showing confusion "What happened? Where's daddy?" he asked trying to open the door to look, even though there was something inside him that was saying he didn't want to "Sister was acting strange, she had this dark look mummy has when she wants to play games." he said shaking a little wondering what was happening
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"I will say this Xue. . . .mother will not be happy when she find out about this. . ." as he looked to the door let out a breath trying to see if there was away he could do something or figure out what to say to her. "This is going to be hard. . . to try and tell her that father wont becoming to dinner tonight. . ." I am the manry-est of men! |
Xue looked to Taihei as he spoke his eyes going wide as he backed away from the door "D-D..." tears welled in his eyes for a moment before he ran to get two toys and get to their mother "Taihei get something child like and keep it with you at all times... that ghost is out for blood and won't be happy till she has it." he called back getting to his toy room he blinked seeing their sister and stayed at the door.
"You could have stopped it! You could have saved him!" he called out, she looked at him with a dark smile "I forfilled a wish, how does that make me bad?" she cooed back "You both wished them dead so you could be happy... my dear children..." with that she vanished grabbing a few child things he ran to their mother's room and ran in not knocking "Mummy?" he called looking around |
Taihei blinked as he went into the doll room looking around grabbing some things as he blinked then looked down some as he sighed a little. "Am I wrong for not feeling any shame this is happening. . . ." he said to him self. "I just can't stand living like this any more. . .what is happening and why. . . .is this right?" as he picked up the small toy then a stuff animal after words. -- Opening the door his mother looked out and him. "What is it? What do you want?" she asked Xue still not in the mood to really speak to him and seeing him made her upset./\ I am the manry-est of men! |
Taihei blinked as he went into the doll room looking around grabbing some things as he blinked then looked down some as he sighed a little. "Am I wrong for not feeling any shame this is happening. . . ." he said to him self. "I just can't stand living like this any more. . .what is happening and why. . . .is this right?" as he picked up the small toy then a stuff animal after words. -- Opening the door his mother looked out and him. "What is it? What do you want?" she asked Xue still not in the mood to really speak to him and seeing him made her upset./\ I am the manry-est of men! |
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