Haha yeah... I do.

I've been like this since I was a kid tho', and more shit just gets added on as I get older. When I was 15 they told me I'd probably be in a wheel chair by the time I was 30.

I got my first foot care products when I was about 6-7. My torso is also mis-alligned. One side of my ribs and shoulder sticks out more forward than the other, I mean it gives me an adorable shoulder dimple but it gets in the way and can be painful sometimes.

Espy; It is. ^^; Technically I could be on pain killers but I am terrified of addiction. I've tried hydrocodone that I got through my friends when some of my pains were kinda bad and I loved it. I'd never felt so... I don't know. It's weird, not having pain your body. And that scared me. So I refuse pain pills. I don't want to wake up one day and not be able to get my shit done because I ran out, or waste money on it. Especially with how addicting pain killers can be. I'll get some friends once in a blue moon but I try and stay away from them.

I also have sharp bone pains, I don't really know how else to describe them, it's like someone is taking a drill through the center of my bones. I've had those since I was a kid too. They last about 12hrs minimum and happen in my arms and legs. I haven't gone to the doctor recently about those because my parents told me I was faking the pain and I was just being a baby about growing pains. =/ So. And now I don't have the money to cover that.

The worst part is how it affects work and school. I rem. at one shift i had at my job (which the work schedule they had us on I learned was illegal) I had to crawl my way up the stairs when I got home. Some days I can't physically get up out of bed.

hydros are the best..

sorry to just pop in the middle of a conversation...
I remember being on those in the hospital a while back

[saw loved in bold and wanted to know what you loved]
>////<

It's all good. You're welcome to pop into any conversation. :3 I was just explaining some of the issues I have.

I've had it a few times, I've done a lot of other things too (not just prescription things) and out of all the things I've done, hydro scares me the most because I could see myself getting addicted to that. So far, I'm not addicted to anything except for maybe the habit of smoking. (As in sometimes I'll just light a cigarette and not even inhale because I like having it in my hand as "something to do"). I'm not about to start, I've been around too many people and seen what it can do to want to ever go down that path.

-hugs hels-

I wish there was a way to take everyones pain away
mizzy feels useless sometimes

Haha, that's generally what humans have to deal with. Tho' pain is sometimes a nesc. evil. You can't understand happiness or kindness if you don't understand pain. The most anyone can ask for is just understanding and company or something like that. Anything after that is just a bonus. <3

-hugs-
okies
I think..
I just know a couple people with a lot of physical issues.
and I always feel so helpless because theres nothing I can do for them

Honestly? Indulge them in their special needs. Like, for me I can't walk very far or very long. So my friends would make me walk all the time far distances and I'd keep telling them I couldn't but no one wanted to take me into consideration so I just stopped going out with people. Or if I have to go a different path than others because I can't walk it (like walking across bumpy grass or large rock covered beds could snap my ankles, so I have to walk all the way around the area and I end up getting ditched a lot.)

I only know one in real life, and I pamper the shit outta her
xD

i only "help" her when she asks tho.
but i'm always there if she needs it.

....That makes me current nausea seem rather.....yeah.

Mizzie; Good girl. <3 And sometimes you can't do things without them knowing to help. Like something that my best friend has started to do is without me asking or anything she'll do something to make my movements easier, or bring something to me just because and not make a fuss of it. Or if we're hanging out with a group of friends she'll just make up a story for staying behind or wanting to go some other way so I have an out to do something easier on my body and I don't get looked at weird.

Espy; Something Jon, [another reason I love him so much, he was so.. wise.] said to me once, "My pains might seem trivial to Ghandi, but they are still my pains and I am still living them." So don't feel like your's are any less than mine. Everyone has to live in their own bodies.

thanks Hels, i try... but she gets mad if I out right help all the time. she likes that i care, but she doesn't want me to do stuff for her. which i get but... sometimes shes collapsed in pain... its like what the heck did you expect me to do hon... -sighs-

shes the one thats already claimed me if I ever decide to try dating a woman....

I would be to afraid of hurting her.. honestly..

I can get like that too. I'm a very do it yourself kinda gal, but Jon and Sarah are to thank for my reluctant acceptance of help when I need it. It's a massive pride thing and you just gotta let her work through it.

o: Ooh. Well fancy that.

Computer is up and running and tablet pen works!!! :D Ya'll know what this means. <3

so how are we all today?

WIP updated.

oh it looks sexy hell

Compared to my first attempt hell yeah. xD I think I'm getting some more things about the male body down. And realizing what angle issues I had that would just not let the sketch work out at all. There's still a few issues but I hope those'll iron out as I re-draw on top of it again and again.

i hope so too because it looks good! i know i have been pondering asking for some art and since all of the au give out i might just have enough for some!

Bad ass. :3

hahah i just have to find you something to draw >w<

Haha, that's kind the most important part. xD

yea but at least i should have the au for it... maybe i will do the real life picture, yes...

Whatever you want luv.

WIP updated.

-eyes pop out a bit at the pose-

>.> That a bad thing? <.< It's the same pose just properly angled.

ok! then let's see if my boyfriend will manage a picture with me! >w<

*goes to look at updated art*

The poses are pretty damn awesome >.>

WS; Haha. xD All righty.

Espy; o.o Whew. Okay. I was scared for a second. 'Cause I've been working on this for about 2-3 hrs now. xD

i saw how scared you were... i was afraid for you, just out of your reaction.

WIP updated.

I'm so glad the pose is okay. xD

it's nice to see clothes on it>W< i think that could of have been the biggest part >w<

WIP updated again. One more set of the final re-draw and then colors. :3

I like to draw people naked first and then try and put clothes on after that so I can get the folds right to the body.

that is a wonderful idea but just with the pose it seemed like it could've been some else..>>

o.o Like what? [/is super paranoid about that pose now]

The vibe I got from what Espy gave me made this. xD;; The guy's blind and the girl's a sweet innocent thing, and you can't see it very well but where her hand is, there's a flower in it. I felt like she'd be the type that if he couldn't see what she was talking about she'd bring it up to him to smell to try and relate how beautiful she thought that was. xD;; I don't know what else that's looking like. >.< ;;;;

well it seemed like he was airing out his stuff.

Haha. OH. xD Yeah no, when I draw the first basics I draw everything. Nipples, vag, dick, the whole shebang so I know how the clothing is supposed to fold over it. xD;;; -so relieved-

yep that was about it, everything is perfect! i can't wait until i get my order in...