anime saturday.... you must tell me more, hell!

I'ts on adult swim. They've started putting anime back into the line up. You can go to their website to see what they've got playing right now. (Sadly for me I passed out in the middle of it. ): But it's okay, I really needed that sleep.)

Neirra; xD Sounds to me like you've already decided on that car. <3

REALLY!?!?!? that is awesome!! next saturday i have off that is what i am doing!

Def. I mean it's super super late at night. They still play family guy, king of the hill, and american dad but after that it's anime.

awesome. I can't wait to watch it all then~

So. Sarah spilled vodka and orange juice all over my work laptop. Don't know if I'll get around to the art. Or any of my school shit, or old statements, or my pictures, hell my entire life for YEARS is on that hard drive. My writing work, my poems, just... I need a drink.

-peaks in and tackles Hels-

-falls to the floor and loves on- <3

teehee
i wish you lived closer,
we'd totally go out and have some fun
and then you could met tony
^^

annnd that story... still is half written... and needs to be added too
>//////>

Wish I lived closer too. We'd have a bomb-ass time together. ROAD TRIP TIEM!!! :D

;D How is Tony?

well... to make long story. SHORT.
and we can make it detailed as we go.

Tony was hitting on me Sunday night into Monday morning.
I didn't think anything of it... not really
it felt nice to be hit on for once
then he has Monday nights and Tuesday nights off.
so when I saw him Wednesday it was the next day he had work.
I got the free corset. doesn't look half bad...

after everyone left and it was dead in there tony was hitting on me again
xD

then it turned into "comeon ash lets have sex -insert random place in store-"

I kept saying no. I'm the only one to EVER tell him no. or at least thats what he says.
and I believe him.
girls are all over him all the time...

uhh...

MORE TO BE ADDED
xDD

[/ is totally not writing fanfiction in her head] >.>

-dies laughing-

I'm pretty sure I already told you that I'm living vicariously through your life. xD THE WORLD NEEDS MORE TONY'S!

oh its bad, cause Hi I'm Mizzy and I'm a sex addict.
And I haven't had sex in a while..
xD

So since he was hitting on me on Sunday night I was already thinking about him that way... which was weird.
cause I wanted to be that one girl that didn't "fall for tony"
but he's a good guy, and he keeps me sane.
which is hard to do nowadays.

so anywaaays,

I told him I don't just fuck guys.
Its the way I am. It needs to mean something more.
I need a relationship... and I want it to be something... idk "special"
So even though I'm addicted and think about it all the time... I have control.

Which is odd, I'm gathering.

when I told him I needed to be in a relationship with that person. He turned around and asked me out. Which totally makes me think HE JUST WANTS SEX so I didn't say anything and sorta laughed at him. later on I asked him if he was serious, and he said yeah, it would be whatever you wanted it to be. A relationship or just sex.. or whatever. and I again didn't say anything.

by the end of his shift he was pretty much begging for sex. "so we should have sex in the bathroom." -No- "Or in the back of that guys truck" -NO- "Or on the table...?" -NO-

and it went on and on.

Finally I asked him why he wanted to have sex with me so bad, because I don't think highly of myself. I'm not a looker... I'm not someone that's always sought after. I'm just not.

and he had a lot of answers but in the end didn't know which one was the real reason why.

"Because you said you've been with two guys, that they didn't last long enough for you, that I couldn't classify your tastes because I didn't know you well enough. On top of all of that, you're not like anyone I've ever gone after. You're not some stupid little girl with no brain that just says yes, You're the only one that's ever talked circles around me... the only one that's ever said no."

All of that was on Wednesday night/Thursday morning.

Thursday night and Friday night he acted like none of that EVER happened...
which confused the shit outta me... honestly I was kinda hurt by it.

then last night once everything had died down. he was back to the, "you should fuck me in the bathroom" thing.

Before I left I said "maybe if you switched your tactic you might get more out of this. I told you why I will always say no. I'll see ya Wednesday tony." and walked out before he could say anything.

NOT NESC. IN ORDER OF FEELS WHILE READING BUT; this is a short synopsis of my feels reading that.

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LOL

and what would the right order be?

Huh. I actually did kinda better than I thought.

The Dean smile is for le-sexy times being hot as hell,
Asked you out is a lot of the fangilring and downward.
If I didn't want to respond so quickly there' be a lot more fangirling with what he said 'cause that's just :D <3 Oh silly men. Silly bad ass men. Silly wanting that special girl and they always go durp.
Kitty image is for what he was doing tho' maybe he had to do other things at the time or felt like you'd rejected him so he was scared and confused and just blargh like men do. Or that's stuff he's not allowed to say to a 'customer' and he has to be careful when he flirts with you.
And then rinse repeat and recycle fan girling + exit and hugs to the end of the story and omg -hops around in a circle and flails-
o______________________o This needs to end up amounting in something.

-giggles-
if I wrote my life as a book.
I would be a top seller.
stupid shit like this happens to me alot.
or rather, stupid shit involving men.

he was flirting with other girls last night, before me...
and I was getting jealous,
I hate that I'm that way...
he's not mine..

I was freakin out so much I asked my friend what to do.
cause I go there. all the time.
like wtf tony.

and I think... well I know, I'd say yes if he wanted to take me out a couple times... or even if he would man up and asked me to be his girl after a while... but idk.. if he just wants the sex... once he gets it... he'll leave won't he?

it would be a waste... wouldn't it...?

ignore bad spelling or grammar, mizzy is dealin with to much right now to proof read before submitting things...
typing to slow and thinkin to fast
xD

I've never been a stickler for that. 3 different languages to learn kinda trained me out of that.

Most stupid shit ends up involving men. And women who have that same attitude. [/ seeing as I've been with both]

I wouldn't get too hung up on the flirting, it's good for business and maybe he just naturally talks like that. But he took special attention to you so; there's that.

And not nesc. If he only wants sex you should tell him "I like you, you're cool as hell. But if you want to fuck don't romance me, if I want a one night stand one day you'd be there, but if you're actually gunning for it to mean more than a 'oh that was great, bye' then take it at my pace and you'll get there." Or something more eloquent than that.

And if it makes you feel good, I don't think it's a waste. You're the only one that has to live in your skin so.

I think... I'm starting to fall for him though...
-hates self-
the one thing I told myself I would never do
xD


before the night where he started talking like that [/the whole just fuck me ash]

I was already thinkin about it.
and I'm a pretty honest person.

even more so when I'm tired
I told him...
and hes like "well whats stopping you"
cause he doesn't understand... that I want it to mean more then that.
no matter how much I say it.

hello hell how have you been?and you mizeria?

Mizzie; I still think it's adorable.

And maybe he doesn't know how to make you understand that it already does mean a lot to him? Like he's just socially inept in that area? xD;

-is super excited to hear more developments-

WS; Good mornin. I really need to find my phone at this point. xD

do you have another phone to call it with? that is what i do..

Nope. Just my cell phone. Apartment doesn't have a land line, well technically we do but we've never plugged anything into it and no one else is home. So, I'm well and truly fucked. Searching for a tiny silver thing in two large messy rooms is not fun with a hangover.

awwhh you should try to not have hang overs...

I usually don't, last night I was just too busy being pissed at people last night to prepare properly.

hmmm well maybe you shouldn't get mad at people easily?

I don't. I'm the chillest person I know. If I'm mad at you and I actually act on it, you fucked up bad. It takes a lot for me to say I'm angry at someone.

oh... may i ask why you were angry then?

Long story, just a lot of stupid BS and me trying so hard to be nice about it but she just kept fucking pushing me. For the past two-three days she's just been pushing my buttons, hell, I wasn't even mad at her for my laptop, didn't yell at her, didn't berate her, and she still continues just pushing and shoving when I'm trying so hard to let go of how bitchy she's been to me recently. So I just said fuck it and walked off the nearest gas station and carried home a case of beer and went through a few of those after I got done with the liquor. xD;;

I dunno Hels, I mean... with the way other girls are all over him... and the way he's all over some of them.
I just don't think he cares about it.
At all. I think he's horny and thought I'd be an easy fuck.

Then I wasn't.

Now, I dunno what to think. If he would just man the fuck up and TRY for something more... maybe it would work. It would at least get him closer to the sex he wants...

Cleaning my room up, laptop is functioning, now just to make sure my tablet works and I'm back on track.

Mizzie; I still feel like that's a part of his job. Maybe go out to coffee with him or something once and see what he's like. Or maybe he's just naturally like that.

And he's still sort of flirting and being nice, tho' if all these girls act like that maybe he just doesn't know how to handle you.

I'd have to see you two interact to be sure tho'.

yeah maybe you're right...
and I've never gone anywhere with him outside of work. I always leave before he does. Cause... well. if he gets off of work and asks me to go somewhere with him I probably would and then I wouldn't get sleep for work. annnd I might end up saying yes. Because after a while I might just say yes... since I want it anyways.

theres only so much I can fight it.

When he's working I'll always be able to. I always have a rational excuse to say no. in my mind. that he doesn't realize.

-still wishes you were closer-

hmm... wanna come visit? xDD

I honestly don't care how much he flirts. As weird as that is for me to say. Yeah, I'll get jealous... but like...
after he walks away from whoever it is. he looks at me and rolls his eyes, and all I can do is laugh.

So I mean, maybe its just him trying to get good tips... maybe its not.
-shrugs-

Men confuse me/

I'm very casual about sex so that what if scenario would just be fantastic for me. xD Haha.

I'd love to come visit. Haha, but I don't exactly have a car to take a road trip with.

Well now that sounds like a you're special type of thing right there. ;] <3

Lol, people are confusing. I've been with and around enough women to find that both genders just really have no clue what they're doing sometimes.

Oh I agree, neither gender knows what they are doing... but I only have to deal with men, normally.
Though I'm already claimed if I were ever to want to try dating a woman.
=.=;;

MAAAYBE I has money to out you on a plane and fly you to me
lol

//or will.. in a couple of weeks. possibly.//

I guess that is something.. but I mean, then he won't talk to me until theres no one around. He basically ignores me being there. I'm gonna have to start getting my own drinks. Cause One every.. two hours. Isn't cutting it for me.

I wish I could be more casual about sex... but I can't.
I've tried before. and it wrecked something that coulda been really good.

Women aren't much better. xD I've found that I def. prefer men. Don't think I could seriously date another woman.

That's so expensive tho'! lol I have heard great things about Colorado tho'.

Haha, oh? You intending on winning the lottery? Killing off a cousin for an inheritance or something? lol

Is it usually busy during that time? Or? Or maybe he's shy, but haha, next time when you get a drink just ask him if he could come in a little bit 'cause you'll probably want another one. xD

I'm more comfortable with it that way. If it doesn't mean a lot then it can't hurt me a lot. xD Emotional sex is weird for me. Tho' I guess it's only happened a few times with my ex so there's that, and this one guy. It wasn't romantic, it never is going to be, but it was sweet. One of the best two/three days of my life. xD Most of my experiences have been one night stands or a few night stands over a long hiatus in between.

women are to much DRAMA
=.=

not as expensive as one thinks.
and I have a good paying job
lol

14.60 an hour. 40 hours a week.
^^;

he used to be right on top of it for me
but then again I used to only be there for like MAYBE 2 hours. and now I'm there all night.
He knows I'm a coke addict. //coke-cola
I can finish one off in 5 minutes.
I'm TRYING to be better about that and drink water... but he's so used to coke every time I ask for WATER he looks at me sorta funny.

I'm a girl of long relationships.
the short ones ended because of the guy not because of me,
the shortest relationship that I ended I ended because the guy moved to fast for me...
it was like a couple months... maybe 3?

with my past.. and my family.
it has to mean something more.
and like, its one of the reasons I don't deal well with drunks.
cause some of the men in my family, get... hands-y
I spent one summer of my childhood locked in a basement cause I was scared shitless of my uncle when he drank.
and I was in there house. HOURS from home...
in a different state completely.

I don't see myself ever having one night stands.

Agreed. xD

Well damn. Nicely done there then. Haha. The most I've ever made was about 7.25$ and they never had enough hours for me. xD

Haha, I generally don't drink soda unless I'm drinking drinking. I love water. xD; My mom thought I had a disease because I love water.

I've only had two big relationships, one long distance and the guy cheated on me with my best friend and then went back and forth between telling me he really did love me and that he was just doing it to see how much he could get out of me. The second one was with my ex-girlfriend and we're still friends but lordy that one was bumpy. No one's ever asked me out other than that. The only real date I've been on was last December, at the ripe age of 21, and he only did it to get to my ex-roommate. :D So yay?

I can sort of relate to that but it's not something I'd like to talk about, I get it tho'. Shitty men are shitty. I've had my fair share of creepy drunk men. First time I went to a bar in the states I was going to the bathroom and this guy just grabbed me and tried to hold onto my shirts. By the time I got out of the bathroom after taking off the guy wasn't there and there was a cop standing where he was.

Or this one night we were at a convention and having a good time when this guy comes up behind me, grabs my hips and starts grinding his dick against my ass and when I flip out and try and move away he keeps following. I was lucky and one of my male friends was next to me and took care of that situation.

And I had a stalker for the longest time who told me I was playing hard to get when I just about slapped him for trying to kiss me.

I guess I trust one night stands more, that's got a lot to do with my ex's tho'. (Other than that first true love that cheated on me I was sort of with a guy who then told me that he'd only been with me because he was lonely and needed someone around and then dropped me out of his life. xD; )