He agreed that even if the ones they needed to talk to about this possible hidden talent might object to it.. the West needed this. Anything would be of help. Though at the same time he was lingering on what Mizuki had said not too long ago. About not seeing a guardian sence he was a child. As far as Thalion knew they had not been seen around for quite a while.. but if he saw one as a child.. He shook off the thought there was no way that he was that old.

Rather thats what he was thinking in his head, if that were the case he wouldn't have been caught and his power throught he arts would be.. unless he was holding back all this time. He needed to get his mind off that thought elves weren't immortal anymore either, not with the lack of magic remaining in the world anyway.. though if it was retruning or starting to return then there might be the slim possiblity.

Either way he went back tot he conversation at hand following Mizuki towards the man they sought out. Though the conversation was as friendly as it should have been expected. Though he did grab Mizuki after the first punch to prevent this getting out of hand.

"and your suppose to be helping me learn what to do as a leader?" He laughed slightly before releasing Mizuki and turning his attention to Tarin. Though about the same moment he was about to say another smart remark Thalion grabbed him by his neck and slammed him against a wall holding him up a few inches to ensure his feet weren't on the floor.

"Should I remind you that I out ranked you before.. and now you have no one to go run and cry to if i decided to order you to do something I know very well you would not like." He grinend a bit though the man he was holding by the neck hardly found this funny.

Releasing him finally Tarin tried to get his breath back as he coughed and gagged a little shooting both of them a glare. "oh.. also I'd keep such comments to yourself.. I won't always be around to ensure Mizuki doesn't get carried away." With that he'd let the other one go about what business he needed to take care of, but he had proved his point at the least.

Mizuki gave a smile as he watched the other struggle and how the male cringed and gasped for air "You should of just let me beat some sence into him" Mizuki said weatching the scene before him. Then Thalion dropped the gasping male to his feet and Mizuki sighed stepping forward. "Well...now that thats over' He said looking to Tarin "I...I mean we" He said indicating to Thalion and himself "Have something to discuss with you"

With that Mizuki began explaining everything. About the magic in the west returning, the power a body could hold and the crystal that could aid it all. With that Tarin had a confused almost bewildered look on his face "Yea so?" He asked "What does this have to do with me?" Mizuki sighed "Really...your that dense?" He asked the male and got a growl in response and a snicker from Thalion.

"I think that you are one of the ones that has this...hidden power" Mizuki said with a nod of his head "I want to test if its true" He said simply and the male before him gave him a look as if though he was crazy. Mizuki sighed. "Its not going to hurt and takes meer seconds....just fucking humor me" That was odd. The only time Mizuki ever swore was when him and Thalion had a yelling war.

Tarin sighed "And if I do have this...power?" Mizuki looked to him at that "If you do...then you along with everyone else I suspect would be put into a class where I teach you to harness the use of the crystal" He said with a shrug of his shoulders. The male looked between both Thalion and Mizuki. Then he nodded his head "Okay" He said.

Mizuki smiled "Great!" He said before taking the crystal off his neck and asking the male before him to stick his hand out palm up. When he did Mizuki then did the same thing he had done to Thalion and waited a moment. Then there in the palm of the others hand a black like swirl began to dance and grow just above the others hand and he smirked looking to to the males shocked face.

With that Mizuki placed the black crystal around the others neck and watched as black and grey began to waltz together in an endless dance. "There see...not so bad" He said smiling before standing and moving next to Thlaion "One down' He said simply before turning to the male. "Tomorrow, dawn. Come to the training grounds C and we shall begin" He said with a nod before walking off leaving a speachless male behind him "Oh and if you want to get rid of the magic just close your hand" He said over his shoulder with a smile.

"I could have.. he should be use to this though. We go through it every once in a while." Though he wasn't sure Mizuki caught what threat he was using against Tarin. Not that it mattered but it was funny to him. Once Mizuki started talking he crossed his arms letting him try to explain to the poor guy what was even going on, and why Thalion even bothered to remind him that rank did matter. Though it was more of a bluff, but most never got their ranks from not earning them.

He laughed more when the whole event was over with before speaking. "congratulations you get to wake up fucking early." Not everyone woke up at the crack of dawn like Mizuki, this was going to be great. Or that's what he thought, though he had a issue with Mizuki's time as far as training went.. There were other troops to deal with for training and now with the other general dead.. The commanders had been covering his inability to train for the past few weeks but now that everyone seemed to declared him the next in charge he had also been told this morning that he'd need to start training the units. On top of everything else.

Though he kept his thoughts to himself about reminding Mizuki of this. "So whos your next victim?" He smirked a little, if that was the main one he was worried about having a issue with he doubted the remaining ones would be that big of a issue.

"Well..." Mizuki began talking to Thalion "I have thoughts of three healers. Tracey, Evelin, and Pona" He said "All three of them seem to have something there and I want to see if im right" He said 'As for the other two" Mizuki began 'I think Zax will have the electric and Veana the water" He said.

Zax was almost number one in the brute force section of the army. Veana was a special tatics force that was much like Thalion. Going on missions and killing targets. Each member he had suspitions about he hoped were true.

He listened to him name off the others before nodding a little. "That'd be good, if both Zax and Veana have it. It'd be easier to train them then most" It'd be really good and the healers were just a bonus. Though he decided to finally speak up seeing as they needed to walk all the way to the other wing just to get in touch with any of the ones they were after.

"I do have a issue with your time of training though, I have fresh recruits of my own I need to train before they end up shooting someone due to the lack of ability to aim.." He sighed a little he saw the group the other day but he hardly thought they were going to be that bad. "also.. you know that Neimi will be of age as well in a few weeks right?" He through it in so causally it was scary.

He seemed a little worried yet proud of the fact at the same time, worried because that meant she was on the front lines or had the risk of being. Yet he also knew she'd e one of the best fresh recruits they'd have from all the years she had watched him or he helped her learn basic combat.

Mizuki looked to Thalion for a moment "I am fully aware of this" He said simply "That is why training is in the morning" He stated "I will be done by early morning and the feild is yours then" Mizuki said looking to Thalion. With that he smiled "Then you can sleep until then because I figered..." He began before he leaned into Thalion lips placed by his ear "We can have our private training session" With that he gave a lick to the lobe before pulling away with a smirk on his lips knowing Thalion would have a brash comment towards it.

"I was merely making sure.. though to admit it I'm hardly looking forward to training them.. I think my life's in danger and I don't even have to leave the encampment.. heh" He laughed slightly, but it was true.. that were dreadful the other day when he was getting a report. It would take a good while before he'd even risk sending them out to scout or even call on them to fight unless it was the last resort they had.

He seemed to freeze a little when Mizuki came close and spoke near his ear. He wasn't sure if that was a threat or something he should be looking forward to... Though his thoughts were quickly answered on it after he licked him and seemed to be smirking.

His ears dropped back a little with the way Mizuki was looking at him. "I'm slightly worried now.. you never let me sleep in.. " He had a feeling he was going to get the worse end of this deal. Mizuki seemed to have plans for training Thalion in this so called private session. and it did sort of worry him a bit.

Mizuki smiled "You shouldnt be worried...." He said then began walking before looking over his shoulder 'Or...maybe you should..." He said smiling before turning with a snort of laughter.

The day was long and tiering but they went to every person and did the same thing over and over and each time Mizukis energy drained a little until he was almost a sleep on his feet leaving the house of Veana. All of them ended up having the magic ability that Mizuki thought they did.

Now they were heading home. Mizuki was dragging his feet by now slowly walking beside Thalion with a tired smile and half lidded eyes.

"Well.. today was productive. Even if you look like your the walking dead." He laughed slightly, this much have been really draining on Mizuki for him to seem that tired, even by the end of the day he normally at least had some life in him. "We'll be home soon enough you can pass out then.. though im waking you when foods done you've hardly eaten again!" He said almost as if he were scolding him, he ate less then Neimi.

After a little while longer they got to the house finally and Mizuki seemed to go right for the bed before sitting on the edge. Thalion nearly felt bad though he'd probably act the same way tomorrow. The new recruits were.. he wasn't sure if they had even the basic idea of combat let alone howto use any sort of weapon.Not only that but in a few mere weeks Neimi would for sure bug him to let her attend.. her birthday marked that she was 18.. even if she didn't act like it.

Mizuki sat down greatfully with a sigh "I will stay awake till after im force fed" He said slightly moving so his back rested on the wall behind the bed. He watched as Thalion began to work in the kitchen. "And about Neimi" Mizuki began slightly "I think you should let her join the new recrutes with no hassle" He said then smiled as soon as Thalion starting protesting.

That is when Mizuki stood up and walked over to Thalion. Wrapping his arms around the males waste he looked into his eyes. "You have to realize...shes not young anymore" He said "Our little girls growing up!" He said and fake cried into Thalions shoulder before getting pushed off and glared at. He couldnt help his laughter.

"force fed huh.. heh guess your starving then" He laughed a little, Mizuki wasn't in that bad of shape he had to do that. Though either way he went about fixing something to eat , he needed to remember to get some more supplies next time he was out in that wing of the camp. "hrm?" He listened to Mizuki say something about Neimi. Though he frowned a little with the next comment. "She's allowed to join.. hell I think she'll be one of the best I have and she'll be a few weeks behind." Though in truth he didn't want her to fight.. not that she was female but she was hardly the strongest.

"I know she's not young .. she's not even mine to get right down to it. I just want her to know what she's getting into." Though Mizuki went a little dramtic on him as he fake cried and Thalion half wanted to punch him but didn't as he pried him off. "tsk.. our? does that make you mom?" He smirked a bit, though he didn't have too much room to talk.. he was the one doing the damn cooking.

Mizuki stood there and smiled then frowned at him "Oh yeah..." He said "A mother thats what...20 times older then her so called daddy!" He said in a burst of laughter. He really found the whole thing funny. Not just from the age aspect but from other points to. Thats when Mizuki leaned in and grabbed Thalions ass leaning into his ear he wispered "And as I recall..." He squeezed "this was mine" He said with a smile.

"Mizuki then stepped away as Thalion growled before he moved back to the bed. He couldnt help but to tease the other male that was before him. He wanted to see his reactions and loved it when he rialed the male up in more ways then one.

"Not sure your age should be something you should brag about..." He though on it a second "how old are you?" He shot him a bit of a look though he could guess older then he was.. for a elf Thalion was hardly aged truth be told. Though he didn't get to think on that much as Mizuki said that this was his as he grabbed his ass. Thalion quickly shot him a glare before hissing out be happy he didn't have a blade on him.

"stop your damn grinning over there... " He frowned a bit, he didn't think it was as funny as Mizuki did. "to be fair that comment works two ways you know.. " He said as he went back to paying attention to the food he was fixing.

Mizuki smiled "Oh I know...and I wouldnt have it any other way" He said with a smile before tilting his head and looking to the male before him "Well...truth be told im..kinda old' He said laughing "Two weeks and I will be 452" He said placing a finger to his chin. "So...yeah old" He said laughing. All though he was concidered young for his people he was old to others. It was funny the way that worked out sometimes.

"But...why should that matter?" He said with a tilt of his head as the other stopped his movements in the kitchen. Mizuki was old and some what wise. His magic stretched fare and he could do almost anything. Though not alot of people knew this. Not even Thalion...until now "I can pritty much do anything magic wise...though hand to hand combat...no" He said slightly

He listened to him before blinking a bit at the way he just causally named off his age. "That.. I wasn't expecting to say the least.. heh.. must be almost laughable that most elves don't live past 50 anymore due to the war.." He never really thought about age he assumed it was similar to his own but, he should have known better really with the whole he hadn't seen a guardian since when he was a child comment.

He shook his head a little "it doesn't matter, just not something you hear everyday is all." It didn't matter really he knew his history well enough that was common if not young for elves. It'd be damn lucky to live that long while this war went on. "well least i have something up on you then" He laughed slightly, though in truth that one time they did cross blades he nearly lost that fight.

Mizuki gave a little laugh "Oh yes I have lived for some time" He said "Though 300 some of that was in the caves of the eastern caves" He said with a far off look. That brought back some unwanted images and he shuddered at the thought. "But yes I am lucky..." He said with a far off look "I know most dont live that long in these times" He said sadly hanging his head.

He nodded a little. "rare indeed.. " He didn't have anything to say as far as him spending most of the time in the caves. Really he'd never know that not if he had a say in it. He grew silent for a moment as he was finishing up the stew that he had been working on.

"heh I'll be lucky to hit 35 according to most of the records" He shrugged a little sure it wasn't something he liked to think about but the facts were facts. He never thought about that fact might upset Mizuki but it was known. Though he wasn't sure what would happen between then and now, he had a few years before then anyway.

Mizuki looked up at that before he stood and walked over to the male. Quickly turning Thalion around he wove a hand into the males red hair and all but slammed there lips together in a heated kiss. After a moment he pulled back his breathing heavy and meer inches from the males infront of him "Like hell I will let you die that early on me..."

Mizuki then pulled away a little looking to the male with soft tender eyes. "When you lived as long as I...you cant stand to see the one thing you truely love die before you do" He said almost painfully "I wont let you go for the world' Mizuki said before he leaned in again this time giving a softer kiss.

He wasn't paying attention to to Mizuki when he suddenly felt a hand in his hair before it was followed by a forced kiss. He didn't even have the time to react as Mizuki seemed to hold the kiss for a moment before speaking. "you may not have the choice in the matter" He didn't seem to want to speak more on what he meant by what he said.

Though he kept listening to Misuki before getting the softer kiss. Once it was released as well he looked away a little "What'd I do.. to even get your attention if you've been around all that time and.." He wasn't sure what he was asking really it was a bit odd for Thalion to express any concerns that were on his mind.

Mizukis eyes got softer and he reached his hand up grabbing Thalions chin turning his head "My family is a long time believer of time is key" He said softly "I mean...waiting for the right one" He said more clearly. "Until I first saw you...I never thought I would meet that one' He said softly before his ears drooped a little and his eyes filled with sorrow and longing "You...doubt my love for you..." He said softly before pulling away slowly taking a step back.

It was true every word. Mizuki had waited a long time for someone to come and save his world from darkness. Thalion was his light in a pitch black world. One that he grabbed and took hold of never wanting to let go. Though when the male before him questioned it...that grip slipped a little and tore at the strings of his heart.

His eyes began to tear at the thought. Here he was trying to have a meaningfull moment with the male before him and its rejected by a meer comment. It hurt and angered him all in one. He then turned and all but ran from the house. He didnt now where he was going but he needed to get there and now.

"Mizuki wait!" He sighed heavily after he ran out of the house. "damn it.. thats not what i meant.." It was already far too late for him to stop the guy from running off. He moved to follow him but he had already lost track of where he had run to by the time he got to the door. "tsk.. damn it!" He said before slamming his fist against the door and then moving to go back inside and shutting it behind him.

He figured he'd come back and then he could explain himself then. He didn't mean that he didn't believe his love, he was just sort of in shock that it took that long for him. Though to be fair he never thought he'd find anyone himself.

After a while he gave up on Mizuki coming back as he moved to the bed and took his shirt off before flopping on the bed, he'd come back whenever he was done moping.

Mizuki ran and he ran. By the time he stopped his lungs burnt from the lack of air. Gasping he was hunched over hands resting on his thighs with his braid almost hitting the dirt below him. When he finaly caught his breath he stood and looked around. His eyes settled on one thing...the tavern.

Mizuki never drank...ever. But now was as good of a time as any in his pissed off mood. Storming over to the door he walked in and looked around. Many men and woman sat about and he went to a table in the back corner as a waitress came up and asked him what he wanted "Anything hard" Was Mizukis reply. He wanted to get the anger out.

The drink came back and he looked at it. It was dark brown in a little tiny glass just enough for a swallow. Picking it up he smelt it and shuddered before pouring it back and swallowing in one shot. He shuddered after before he looked to the waitress and said "Keep them comming"

About 5 shots later Mizuki stumbled out of the bar. He needed to go home. Stumbeling home was fun in so many ways. He saw a shocked Neimi who almost fainted at the drunken state and he kept walking. Mizuki stumbled a few times falling but getting up ignoring the little trickle of blood from a scratched knee.

By the time he got to the house Mizuki had lost his shoes, his shirt was undone and his hair flowed freely about it. That in it self was weird. He never let his hair down unless he was at him before Thalion.

Walking into the house he stumbled a little before closing the door behind him. Leaning up on the door he hiccuped before sliding down with a thunk to the floor then a giggle of laughter.

The sudden noise from Mizuki walking into the house make Thalion wake up from where he was laying. "what he hell" He got up and walked over to him before glaring a little "are you fucking nuts how much did you have?!" He sighed heavily before forcing Mizuki to his feet. "come on get to the bed damnit you have a group tot each first thing and you can't even walk.."

He just did notice his knee was bleeding as well. "let alone your bleeding too? You half look like you were mugged" He sighed and forced Mizuki to the bed "geese your a mess..."

When Mizuki was grabbed he smiled and wrapped his arms around Thalions neck. And when the backs of his knees met the bed he fall bringing th other with him. Reaching up he kissed the others neck then began to suck and lick at it before he was pushed off a little witha complaint "Do...y-you really...doubt...My l-love?" He asked looking up to Thalion with needy eyes.

He then leaned forward and kissed the male before him. He then wrapped his arms around them again before forcing a change of placements. He now leaned over the male sad lust filled lavender eyes looking down at him "...Why..." He said heartbrokenly.

He was about to answer the poor drunken Mizuki when he forced a sudden switch of positions. "What do you mean? I don't doubt it! you left before you could let me finish." He sighed a little "don't look at me that way you have no damn reason to be sad..."

He frowned a little hearing the voice Mizuki was using as he moved a hand to brush some of his hair back. "please don't think I doubt it.. I don't. You never let me finish earlier." He sighed heavily knowing what he wanted to say but he couldn't bring himself to say it.

Mizuki looked to him with almost pleading eyes "Then continue....please continue" He said looking to him. Mizukis cheeks were flushed in a drunken way but his eyes read pain, hunger and need all in one "Explain to me then..." He said to Thalion "So...My heart wont hurt anymore" He said almost sadly his ears dropping.

"explain.. er.. " He seemed to grow silent a moment knowing what he needed to say but he didn't like just blurting out such things, it wasn't how he was .. but Mizuki needed to hear this. This was his fault from the beginning. "I was trying to say earlier how'd I end up being lucky... you could have had anyone and being around for such a time hell .." He sighed a little before going on "I had planned on being alone, aside from Neimi I cared about no one and she was more of a child to me then anything.."

He probably still failed at explaining his point across to a drunken mizuki but he was dreadful with words in this situation so he had nothing better to say other then he had gotten damned lucky, they could have killed each other when they first laid eyes on one another.

Mizuki looked down at Thalion "Well...would you wrather be alone?" Mizuki asked slightly. He already knew what Thalion was going to say and for some reason he needed to hear it from the male below. Mizuki leaned down a little with a growl on his lips as the other didnt speak "You would...woudnt you..." He said in a slightly hurt matter.

Mizuki went to move off of the male when still no answer came to meet bent back ears. Did Thalion really want to be alone or was he just playing with Mizukis heart strings to try and get a reaction out of him. He didnt know.

He couldn't believe that he was even asking that, he was in shock for a few moments unable to reply back to him because of what had been asked. How could he say that? After everything they had gone through hell if he wanted to be alone he would have killed Mizuki off a year ago, better yet he probably would have killed him at the Eastern camp.

When he felt Mizuki trying to move he grabbed him to prevent him from doing so, then he moved a hand to his face to force him to look at him. Thalion had a slightly angered look crossing his expression as he said his next words. "I never said I wanted to be alone damn it! Your saying a lot of assigning shit right now you know that? Are you even listening to yourself?!"

He released Mizuki a moment later before he moved to sit up a little though Mizuki was still over top of him. "If i had wanted to be alone I would have gotten rid of you over a year ago, hell you weren't even fighting back then. Nothings changed your just putting words into my mouth that I have never once said, frankly it's starting to piss me off really."

He sighed a little trying to get his temper back under control it wouldn't help to get pissed off at him and fly off the handle not when he was like this. "I already explained to you that I'm not tat great with wording things at times, but you wouldn't listen to me before you stormed out of the house. Instead you went off got piss ass drunk and now your acting like a damn woman crying over nothing!"

Mizuki stopped and listened to everything that Thalion said. True it was nothing that the male before him at ever said but it was his thoughts and Thalion now layed under him all but yelling inchs from his face because he voiced his thoughts? How was that even fair? Mizuki growled before he pushed up off of the male before standing.

Though in doing so he tripped over his feet and landed on his ass with an exhale of air. He didnt care when Thalion sighed and stood reaching a hand out to him. He slapped it away and growled lowly "Dont....dont touch me' He said shocking the other and he watched as Thalion took a step back.

"All my life I searched for the one that I could say I loved...and I found him" Mizuki began his head hung a little. "And now that man that I love calls me a women" He said with a little tinge of laughter "And yells at me for voicing thoughts" He said "It was better when it was left unspoken right..." He said before moving over and back. Leaning against the wall he crossed his legs and hung his head. Sitting the same way he had when he first got there. Not speaking. Not moving. Nothing, just sat there.

His ears dropped wen Mizuki slapped his hand away before going on about what he had said. Though he didn't say anything at first as he watched as he moved back to the same spot he was in back when he first was here. He started to say something but didn't. What was he suppose to say. He knew damn well that Mizuki was right.

At first he was going to just leave him there till he sobered up, though it was starting to get to him the longer the other just sat there and did nothing.. Sure Thalion knew what he meant but apparently no matter what he said it wasn't good enough for Mizuki. Even when he near about yelled at him that he loved him it didn't get through.

After a while longer of trying to think of something to say his temper finally going over the edge with Mizuki and how he was acting now let alone all of the things he had said. He stormed over to Mizuki before grabbing other other and pushing him downwards so he pinned him against the floor as he was forced onto his stomach. With Mizuki didn't expect this so the pinning process was easy as Thalion moved a little to hiss out his words near Mizuki's ear. "You don't believe me.. then I'll show you my love.." Once he was finished speaking he bit the other's ear rather roughly before releasing it.

Mere seconds later he heard Mizuki's cries in protest as he tried to get from under the other. But he didn't seem to care as he went about ripping Mizuki's clothes off and keeping keeping him pinned against the floor. Misuki didn't believe him, no matter what he said he'd prove to him what his thoughts were what his true feelings were even if Mizuki didn't want them.

Mizuki was shocked to say the least. He was expecting the other to storm the house, yell call him names maybe even hit him to beat the message into his head, but Mizuki never expected the thing he got instead. Being forced down to the ground he gasped as he was flipped to his stomach being roughly pushed into the ground. His heart stopped as the other male leaned down and whispered into his ear "You dont believe me..then I'll show you my love"

Mizukis heart began to beat faster as he felt the first tug of his clothes. Did Thalion mean that...no, he couldnt. Mizuki began to protest and yell trying to force the other off of him. Mizuki didnt want this! He cried out and stopped his protests as the seiring hot fire raced up his back from a dry and forced entry.

Mizuki shuddered and yelled. Growling low he tried his hardest to get the other male to stop his actions. Tears running down his cheek ad the other was forced into the floor by a strong hand his cheek getting scratched on the rough wood below.

Soon Mizuki gave up trying to prevent what was happening and laid defeated under the other male crying brokenly. Mizuki then felt the male behind him shudder as the pain and fustration was finaly done and Thalion pulled back. He whimpered blood and other things running down shakey white legs. Mizuki collapsed the rest of the way to the ground.

His eyes were dull and lifeless as he stared at something forgotten. His breathing was pained and his right cheek now sporting a deep purple and blue bruise began to swell. A hand mark appearing on his side in the same sickening color. Mizuki didnt care at that moment that he was nakid from head to toe his hair falling around him.

Even through all the protests and cries to stop he never listened. He was half blinded by the fact he wanted Mizuki to know what he felt but from all of the frustration at the fact that he couldn't explain to the other no matter what he said or did .. it had all piled upon his shoulders for most of this time. This wasn't the first time Mizuki had said things that Thalion never said, as if he were trying to push away from him.

After everything was over with and Mizuki collapsed the rest of the way to the floor Thalion finally did get out of his blinded state knowing what he had just done, for that alone Mizuki should leave him he didn't do anything to solve the problems between the two of them. He stayed there motionless for a few moments still staying over top of Mizuuki.

After recovering himself a little his ears dropped as he moved to pull Mizuki up from the floor and close to him before burying his face into the other's neck. He seemed to quiver a little as he held him there sitting with his back against the wall. He mumbled his next words against the others skin saying he was sorry, really Thalion knew that Mizuki would probably leave after this, there was no point to stay here with someone who couldn't control their temper.

Mizuki laid there and cringed at the others touch though he didnt move away, he didnt have the energy to. As Thalion pulled him into his lap and held him there Mizuki did nothing. His arms hung loosely at his sides his head dipped back as the other expressed his feelings of sorrow for the act that he did.

Though the damage was done and Mizuki felt broken. The one he loved forced to take what he didnt want to give and that in itself broke his spirit. Mizuki stared to the roof above his head half lidded expressionless and dull orbs staring at nothing as Thalion tried to get him to speak to say anything.

What was there to say really? He couldnt change what took place. All he knew was that he didnt like it. When Thalion pulled back and loosened his grip Mizuki pushed back and away from the male weekly as Thalion gave no protest.

Mizuki stood on shakey legs as his back, legs and head gave protest to the movement. He turned and stopped as he heard Thalion speak though he didnt notice the words. All he noticed was when the words stopped. He stood there for a moment his hair covering his backside the tips turning red from blood until he forced himself to move.

Walking slowly he ignored everything around him. All Mizuki had in mind was a bath. Running the water he sat in a hot tub. When the water stopped Mizuki began to rub at his skin. Not for the fact that he felt dirty but for the fact that it was Thalion who caused him to feel that way.

Mizuki was now scrubbing at his skin with tears rolling down his cheeks faster and harder then before. His skin was red and blotchy from the treatment. The place he was working on now was about to look the same when he felt a stong hand grasp his stopping his movements and Mizuki froze. Turning terrified dull orbs up to the male before him noticing at the other flinched when he gazed into his eyes.

He just stayed there at first, the thoughts going through his mind told him he was a rather pathetic being. Even as Mizuki walked away he couldn't bring himself to move, he was trying to get his mind around what he had just done. The one person he cared about and he just hurt them probably beyond repair.

After a while he forced himself to move, sitting here wasn't going to fix any of this, hell he didn't know how he was going to fix any of this really. He stood there at first in the door way of the washroom as he watched Mizuki, though it was easy enough to tell the damage was done and there was no amount of words that could take it back.

Walking over to him and placing a hand on his shoulder he saw the flood of emotions from the other, most of them that he wished he never saw. He didn't move for a moment until he felt Mizuki flinch under his hand. Drawing it back he wasn't sure what to do, this wasn't what he wanted.

Without really thinking he moved into the tub and pulled Mizuki close to him, forgetting all any any clothing he had on as he let out a soft whine against Mizuki's shoulder as he buried his face against the other. For what he did he'd gladly accept if the other hated him for the rest of his pathetic years.

He hopped the fact that Mizuki was already wet that he wouldn't notice that he was crying against his shoulder, he never bothered to show emotions but the thought that he had messed up this badly was really dawning on him, that he was going to lose Mizuki and it was his own damned fault.

Mizuki stiffened as the other male held onto him. He was scared of the others touch. This made Mizuki angry. And it was all the males fault infront of him. Mizukis anger rose the more he thought of it. Everything that happened was the males fault. Mizuki growled low the sound vibrating through his chest as his ears flattened.

Mizuki then reached two hands up and placed them on Thalions chest before pushing the male away from him and into the wall of the tub behind the males back. That is when Mizuki swung and cracked the male in the jaw with a strong right first whipping his head to the side.

For some reason that was not good enough for Mizuki and he slammed his left fist into Thalions chest with as much force as he could muster. Two more punches later and his hits became weakend and he cried. Tears running down his face, wet silver hair sicking to his back and arms as he now pounded light fits on the others wet clothe clad chest saying one thing over and over..."Why... why.... why..."

He never offered to fight back, normally Thalion never left Mizuki hit him. Though strength alone he could have prevented the other from doing any of the strikes. but this he felt was better, just to let the other take out anything he felt.

His ears dropped listening to him saying why over and over, he didn't have a answer. What could he say? saying sorry wasn't fixing this, hell he didn't think anything would fix this. For now he just stayed silent letting Mizuki repeatedly hit him, even if each strike grew weaker as it went on.

Once he seemed to stop hitting him and just stayed there sobbing Thalion seemed to have a expression that was almost soulless. "I don't have a reason.. if it'd make you feel better then kill me, please. You can find your happiness elsewhere, probably with someone who can at least treat you the way you should be treated.. " He was pushed away each time he tried to hold him, hell Mizuki seemed to want to do nothing other then hit him at the moment, he wished he'd hit harder really.

A thought was that he was half tempted to give the guy one of his daggers just to see if he would end it, nothing would make up for what he had done. Anyone else he wouldn't have cared but not when he just destroyed the one person he wanted to stay by his side.

Mizuki groweled and for the first time since it happened his eyes met those of Thalions with anger, regret and sorrow clouding his vision with tears "Kill you....what would that do but cause me more harm..." He said angerly before hanging his head. His forehead rested on the other males chest as his body shook with anger and his sobs.

Mizukis voice then softened as his shoulders sunk "...the only one I want....is you" He said looking up with pain filled lavender orbs. "All I ever wanted...." He said hiccuping with tears. "I..could never kill you" He said before placing his head back onto the others chest "I...love you to much"

"i wish you wouldn't.. not after what I did. Even death wouldn't allow me a freedom from the torment my soul will be forced through." Was his soft reply, he really did want death for once. He wouldn't fight it, hell he knew death wouldn't save him but it would prevent this from ever happening again. He wanted Mizuki to be happy and he had just destroyed that, even with Mizuki saying he loved him he couldn't accept such words.

He was still half crying and trying to hold back any further tears, though he didn't show it like Mizuki did keeping his voice steady and any real sign of pain from his thoughts hidden. He ha already done enough damage he didn't need Mizuki knowing that he was weak at the moment.

That is when Mizuki raised a shakey hand and placed it on the others cheek moving his face to peer at his own. Mizuki then brushed a lingering tear away from the underside of the males eye "Not as much as torment mine would face with out you..." He said looking deep into the eyes of the other male before him 'We...all make mistakes" Mizuki said shakily as he placed a hand on the scars of the others chest. The ones caused by a little necklace he once had.

"Yet....we move past them with hopes of a brighter future" He said sadly before he saw the face of the male below him crack a little. The mask the other had put into place so Mizuki wouldnt see his weakness began to slip and Mizuki continued hitting home within the others heart "You could take everything I had from me, cause me pain and neglect me...but I will always love you" Mizuki said "And will always love you...even with every mistake..." He said.

"So...please think of some one else aside from yourself for a moment" He said to Thalion "Think of what I want, how I feel, what I need..." He said almost painfully "All I need..." He said as he leaned down "...Is you" With that he kissed the male before him with all the anger and hurt that has been welling up inside of him.